Again, I have been away for a ridiculous amount of time. Not that I'm concerned there are any dedicated followers who will be waiting with baited breath for the next thrilling instalment of my life!! But I do like to do things right and seven months between posts seems way too long!
So, what's been happening?
Work is absolutely crap. I've been on capability for the last 8 weeks, for such minor things you wouldn't believe it! I do wonder if there are other things that I've not been made aware of but I can't think of anything. It is all starting to feel a little personal, I was given targets for the this period and was supposed to have a meeting each week, I didn't even get phone calls. Not a problem, I stuck to the targets, sent an update email, got one back basically saying I was on track and then I end up with a disciplinary hearing! I am so ready to leave and two fab jobs have come up so I'll be applying for those and will be leaving this company as soon as possible.
OH's favourite uncle died a few days ago, we're all pretty cut up. He was 89 years old but I've been left with the feeling that I'd liked to have seen him one more time. We visited him every year and each time we left he told us he wouldn't be around the following year and we'd tell him he couldn't die until we'd seen him one more time, apparently this year, he was right. The funeral was today and the kids and I haven't gone so we're doing a 'goodbye' ritual tonight after dinner. I've taken some ideas from info on the net and made a couple of bits up myself, I just want to make sure the kids get some closure. We've talked about how Uncle's gone to heaven (not the Summerland, he was Catholic) and how he's with his brothers and parents and no longer in pain and as I talk, I wonder if I'm saying these things because I believe them, to comfort the kids or to comfort me? I find myself doing all the usual questioning one does when a loved one dies. It's times like this I wish I was in tune with the dead, to get some comfort or answers.
On a positive note, I have passed the first part of my BA in Early Years. I'm glad, I know I didn't pur my best into it but I am determined to better with the next bit.
My goals remain the same, BA first (at least up to level 4), then NVQ Assessor & Level 2 Tutor.
The PTA is still ok, because of lack of information being shared from the previous chair this year was truly by the seat of our pants but we have made it through, raised money, lost weight through stress but are much better prepared for next year. I've even managed to get OH involved and he enjoyed it.
After the summer fete, it was like a family bar-b-que. We had a couple of cans, some left over food and we took our time clearing up, no rush, the kids all helped, there was no arguing and it was fabulous weather too! It is that community spirit that I wanted out of the PTA; and we made it look so relaxed and easy we were inundated with help for the discos this time. I think we may have cracked it!!
Spiritually I think I've hit a bit of a brick wall. I've missed full moon ritual since March and have only just got round to sorting my altar which has been in need of a clean and tidy for about the same length of time.
And in my spare time, I'm re-reading Terry Pratchett's Colour of Magic. It is over 20 years since I first read it and I'm pleased to say it makes more sense this time round! I don't think Mr Pratchett ever intended it to make sense to a 14 year old!!!
So, all caught up with the last few months. Time gallops on to my 36th birthday and already planning PTA stuff for next year.
No rest for the wicked I suppose!!!!
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