So, I haven't posted since June and my what a lot has happened!
I have, foolishly, had a one-night-stand with an ex and OH found out! What an idiot!! So, unsurprisingly, we split up. This then cause a chain reaction in my head which lead me to act as if I were high on drugs and culminated in my having a nervous breakdown.
Oh Gods, it's been horrible!
OH and I are back together and we're working on our 'issues' but the last three months have been hell.
I can't believe I nearly lost my soul mate or that I'd forgotten he was right there in front of me. We are completely in love again and talking about all the things, going back years, that have played on our minds and lead to a gaping chasm between us.
At first, I blamed him, entirely, it was nothing to do with me and he was the one with the problem but as time went on and we were actually honest with each other, I had to accept my part in what had lead us to that point.
I didn't realise I'd hurt him so much, he on the other hand was quite calculating about how much he hurt me. And I relished getting my own back when I left him and took the kids. How did we get to be so bitter and not even notice?
You can't trust grown ups, they never stick to the rules!!
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