Blimey, I've been away for ages!

So, I haven't posted since June and my what a lot has happened!
I have, foolishly, had a one-night-stand with an ex and OH found out! What an idiot!! So, unsurprisingly, we split up. This then cause a chain reaction in my head which lead me to act as if I were high on drugs and culminated in my having a nervous breakdown.
Oh Gods, it's been horrible!
OH and I are back together and we're working on our 'issues' but the last three months have been hell.
I can't believe I nearly lost my soul mate or that I'd forgotten he was right there in front of me. We are completely in love again and talking about all the things, going back years, that have played on our minds and lead to a gaping chasm between us.
At first, I blamed him, entirely, it was nothing to do with me and he was the one with the problem but as time went on and we were actually honest with each other, I had to accept my part in what had lead us to that point.
I didn't realise I'd hurt him so much, he on the other hand was quite calculating about how much he hurt me. And I relished getting my own back when I left him and took the kids. How did we get to be so bitter and not even notice?
You can't trust grown ups, they never stick to the rules!!

The Moot

The moot was bloody fantastic!!! I was so sure I'd be on my own for the two hours I took a book with me!
But I needn't have worried because two lovely people turned up, one an ecclectic Pagan and a Druid and we had a marvellous chat. I got the same buzz and reaffirmation of faith that I get when I spend time with the Coven. I felt happier, calmer, just all round like the world was a better place because I had made a connection with a part of me that is important.

Anyway, we're going to do it again next month and, hopefully, more locals will feel happier about coming.

So, I am Pagan, Hear me Roar.

Life is good!!!

So much to do and so little time!!

Well, we went to Scotland for the half term and had a fantastic time. Other Half (OH) actually managed to behave himself tolerably for the whole week, we only had one incident of pointless destruction (when he snapped Moo's fishing net because she was cheeky) Apart from this he could almost have been mistaken for a member of the human race!!
I completely missed the new parent nights at school, which is kind of embarassing as I was the one who complained about the PTA not getting to know new parents. I'm also not around for the next two events we are putting on, I have considered taking over as Chairperson when my friend who currently holds the post leaves in September. I'm not sure how good it'll look with me being absent for such important events this year.
The Moot is on Monday, my friend, also Pagan, has said she wants to come along too, which is nice, at least I won't be sat there on my own!!! I am quite looking forward to it, it'll be nice to see others in this area and see what they've managed to find out about our local history.
What else?I was friendly with a chap at work, nothing over the top just a giggle and he has turned out to be a desperate stalker, won't leave me alone!
So, it's that time of night again, Moo and Goo to get to bed and a stupidly large pile of washing to be attacked!!!

Till next time .........

So I Continue

So our Coven trip went really well. It was so good to see everyone, well, there were a couple of us missing but it was good to see everyone else.
R had her initiaition and I was just as soft about this as I was H's 2nd degree. I think I have control issues, that's what N says anyway! I was so relieved when it was over but the after party was great. D & I got a serious case of the giggles and it was just a fab evening.

I won't get to see any of them for about a month now, which isn't too bad but I don't think I'd like to go any longer.

Moo & Goo are getting on well, but I think their busy lifestyles are starting to get on top of them and this week, we have avoided three of the five after school activities they do. I think they just needed a break.

The next few weeks are going to be manic, I have a moot to organise, school PTA to organise, I'm tutoring in the evenings, I have friends to visit, getting the kids to their activities and I have to go back to London for one of the best training sessions I have ever done. It is fantastic!!!
So I may go some time between posts again. I like this on line stuff, it's great!

I Need A Diary

Well, in true style, I have contacted a few people to organise the moot, only to realise I am already working on the date I have chosen! Wally!
Anyway, all is not lost, I have re-contacted everyone and suggested we put it off until the following month. I will get this off the ground!!
Beltaine is nearly upon us and I have a weekend away with the Coven. Should be interesting, we have grown in numbers recently and we aren't able to get together as regularly as we would like. I has been suggested this affects our group mind, we're not as intune as we could be. This weekend will be the second time we will all be together at the same time. Personalities are definately clashing, like I said, it should be interesting!!!
It's nice to be sort of organised but other people do expect it of you. It gets harder and harder to say 'no', which is frustrating, especially in situations when you are being used as a gobetween and you know someone else is not doing their job. Bloody grown ups, you can't trust them, they never stick to the rules!
Work is fine but there I have to deal with a particular power-crazed egomaniac, who would crumble if anyone actually stood up to her but her two bosses seem to be scared of her. I would love to know what she has on them. She's one of these people who really deserves everything she gets but doesn't get her fair share!!

Here We Go Then

So, along with everything I've mentioned below, I'm also trying to organise a moot in my home town for Pagans in the area. Why? Well, I'm Wiccan for one thing & as the title of this blog suggests, I don't do more than I have to, probably not an inspiring thing to say but honest none the less!
I will let you know how the first one goes, which is taking place in a couple of weeks' time. I have a need to connect with my local Pagan community and the Coven I belong to is based in London, so I have to make my own entertainment up here in the sticks.
The Wiccan epiphany was a suprise, especially as it was my Catholic priest at the time who told me I wasn't Catholic! It also didn't help that I was 15 and thought he was condeming me to Hell. As you can tell, I got over that, rather convincingly.
I am actually finding this strangely theraputic, I hadn't intended continuing with this blog after my course finished but I had forgotten how much I enjoy keeping a diary!!

First Post

Well, I'm not sure how this has happened but I seem to have ended up a very busy mum of two. It's a good job I don't work full-time (well, let's be honest, 30 hours per week is as good as!) or I wouldn't have time to actually fit everything else in.

This is a new blog because I had to create because of an IT course I have recently taken and I think I may well keep it up.

So, about me. I'm 35 in July 2008, as I said, I have two children, they have the same dad although we never did the 'right' thing by getting married. The kids are 7, boy, he will be refered to as Goo (from Googly Bear in Monsters Inc) & 6, girl, she willl be refered to as Moo (from Schmoopsypoo, also from Monsters Inc), these have been their nicknames for years, wasn't I organised.

I've been with my partner for 13 years, God, I can't believe it!!! and we've had our ups and downs but we are fairly stable, or at least I am!

For fun I have joined my kid's school's parent/teacher association, I help a mate with a magazine he publishes (only a little though), I am completing BA in Early Years, the kids have after school stuff every week day, I keep the house clean, tidy & running smoothly and sometimes I get to sleep!!

I have no idea what I am going to do with the blog now I have started it but we shall see how it evolves.

Anyway, that's enough for now, off to put the kids to bed and chill for a bit!!