Happy New Year

So, the year turns again and at least this year was far less exciting than last!!
I've made my New Year's Resolutions and I'm putting them up here so I can be reminded of them and keep them up!!

1. LOSE 3 STONE!!!! I can't believe I've put almost all of my weight back on!! What a DIMWIT!!!
2. Run every other day, following the plan I found on the internet.
3. Not eat after 8pm, this has a huge impact on my weight.
4. No alcohol during the week unless I am on holiday.
5. Finish writing out my BOS 2nd Degree.
6. Finish my kid's Sabbat books.
7. Get more organised with my BA.
8. Get out, and stay out, of my overdraft.
9. Clear my credit card.
10. Sort out the allotment and not rely on other people!
    
11. Phone my friends more often, I don't visit them regularly and end up hearing about terrible periods in their lives, after the fact, not very good friend!
12. Be calmer with the kids, I've had my unreasonableness shown to me by two incidents involving my & my friends kids, I don't stick up for them and it's not fair.
13. Learn a language.
14. Learn an instrument.
15. Meditate every day.
16. Pilates once a week.
17. Add to this blog more often!!

I think this is enough to be going on with, we'll see how we go!!!

Happy New Year, I hope it's a good one X

Unbelievable!!

Another complaint has been made about me!! And this one is that I'm racist!! The night my comments were supposed to have been made, I can't even remember any comments about colour, let alone any that would have been offensive.
I think I'd like to get off now.

When it all comes clear

I've been wondering how I will know if I have a BA (Hons) in seven years time when I complete my OU course and have finally got to the page where it is all explained.
It just goes to show, when there is so much information, people don't read it!!
I forgot to do full moon ritual again, I have to be the worst witch on the planet!! I need to get back into the spiritual swing of things as I'm finding my old, snappy self coming back, not a good thing!!

Back From The Farm

So we went to stay at OH's cousin's farm. We've been together 15 years nearly and this was the first time he's taken me and the kids.
It was fabulous, the kids were pretty much feral for the whole eight days and the time flew by, I can't believe we're home already.
I got the help a little on with the cows but didn't do any milking as it meant being at the business end of the cows, and they are not polite or toilet trained!! Not nice! The kids took their turn, which I am very proud of, they just took it all in their stride. They also had 5 dogs around them. I thought this might encourage OH to let them have a dog of their own but he is now more convinced than ever that they will not be sensible with it. Bloody kids, this was their chance and they blew it! Still, he's changed his mind before we can only wait and see.
I would heartily recommend everyone spend some time on a farm, it has done me the world of good and it would appear we are expected back in a couple of months!!!

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Well, I've been a very lucky girl this year, I've got my usual smellies, a car stereo, camera and a beautifully framed photo of my family.
As you can imagine I was in tears!!
Anyway, still working hard so better get on!

I could feel the breeze on my ear!!!

So, I had the hearing & there is going to be no action taken. It is felt I could do with some support and feedback about my performance but no written warning or anything serious like that!
I know this has been a lucky escape, I came out of the meeting and had a little flash of the moment when the baddy programmer says 'I am invincible' and then gets killed. It could have gone very differently and I will have to make an effort to keep my nose clean from now on in the face of such a vindictive smiling xtian viper. My own silly fault for being too trusting and assuming other people can live in the grown up world and act like adults in the face of different agendas and beliefs.
More fool me!!!

And so it hits the fan

Joy of joys! I received the official letter telling me that I have to attend an official disciplinary hearing.
The things I'm being told off for are rubbish, I have decided to just roll over for them, keep looking for another job and get out of there as quickly as I can.
I feel sick, I love my job and get so much satisfaction from it and it has been ruined by me not putting enough detail into my calendar, oh and swearing when I got upset, not at my manager as it has stated in the letter, it was more punctuation, does that make sense?
Anyway, I'll let you know how I get on!

Long Time No Hear

Again, I have been away for a ridiculous amount of time. Not that I'm concerned there are any dedicated followers who will be waiting with baited breath for the next thrilling instalment of my life!! But I do like to do things right and seven months between posts seems way too long!
So, what's been happening?
Work is absolutely crap. I've been on capability for the last 8 weeks, for such minor things you wouldn't believe it! I do wonder if there are other things that I've not been made aware of but I can't think of anything. It is all starting to feel a little personal, I was given targets for the this period and was supposed to have a meeting each week, I didn't even get phone calls. Not a problem, I stuck to the targets, sent an update email, got one back basically saying I was on track and then I end up with a disciplinary hearing! I am so ready to leave and two fab jobs have come up so I'll be applying for those and will be leaving this company as soon as possible.
OH's favourite uncle died a few days ago, we're all pretty cut up. He was 89 years old but I've been left with the feeling that I'd liked to have seen him one more time. We visited him every year and each time we left he told us he wouldn't be around the following year and we'd tell him he couldn't die until we'd seen him one more time, apparently this year, he was right. The funeral was today and the kids and I haven't gone so we're doing a 'goodbye' ritual tonight after dinner. I've taken some ideas from info on the net and made a couple of bits up myself, I just want to make sure the kids get some closure. We've talked about how Uncle's gone to heaven (not the Summerland, he was Catholic) and how he's with his brothers and parents and no longer in pain and as I talk, I wonder if I'm saying these things because I believe them, to comfort the kids or to comfort me? I find myself doing all the usual questioning one does when a loved one dies. It's times like this I wish I was in tune with the dead, to get some comfort or answers.
On a positive note, I have passed the first part of my BA in Early Years. I'm glad, I know I didn't pur my best into it but I am determined to better with the next bit.
My goals remain the same, BA first (at least up to level 4), then NVQ Assessor & Level 2 Tutor.
The PTA is still ok, because of lack of information being shared from the previous chair this year was truly by the seat of our pants but we have made it through, raised money, lost weight through stress but are much better prepared for next year. I've even managed to get OH involved and he enjoyed it.
After the summer fete, it was like a family bar-b-que. We had a couple of cans, some left over food and we took our time clearing up, no rush, the kids all helped, there was no arguing and it was fabulous weather too! It is that community spirit that I wanted out of the PTA; and we made it look so relaxed and easy we were inundated with help for the discos this time. I think we may have cracked it!!
Spiritually I think I've hit a bit of a brick wall. I've missed full moon ritual since March and have only just got round to sorting my altar which has been in need of a clean and tidy for about the same length of time.
And in my spare time, I'm re-reading Terry Pratchett's Colour of Magic. It is over 20 years since I first read it and I'm pleased to say it makes more sense this time round! I don't think Mr Pratchett ever intended it to make sense to a 14 year old!!!
So, all caught up with the last few months. Time gallops on to my 36th birthday and already planning PTA stuff for next year.

No rest for the wicked I suppose!!!!